But by mid-year my world turned upside spinning uncontrollably as Dorothy did.
By 2011 my tornado spun. Destroying so much in its path. Relationships and self worth became tiny fragments of hurt and uncertainty.
But all things must land. For what goes up must come down.
And in 2012 this tornado finally landed in Oz. A time where self discovery was the key to returning home. I befriended all the characters of Oz. I would see this year in search of courage, a brain and a heart. And I would then find my way home.
And now 2013. A year to be thankful. For I have clicked my ruby red heels and found home. It is not in the walls I call a house. It is not with the people whom I have to be around to feel a part of their lives and it is not in the career I would eagerly give my all.
But home is where my heart is called to feel inspired, curious and where I can fall.
For I now know God and a man who will catch me.
So this is my plan.
You see March will bring about a new location, a new house, a new job, a new group of friends, a new breakfast spot, a new church for my husband and I. And so instead of filling my sponge brain that is so willing to except all things doubtful I will see this year for its thank-ings. Yes this year is going to be about,
52 weeks of
saying seeing thanks.
I live a privileged life. A blessed life. And so instead of focusing on the what ifs and if I had that.....I want to focus on the I am thankful for...*insert item, person, opportunity, emotion of the week*. So the plan may sound superficial, obsolete, insensitive to list a bunch of people, feelings, materials that I am thankful for. But perhaps by changing my perspective on the things I take for granted I will in fact empower myself to change the attitude of myself (and perhaps of others) of seeing the things I am thankful for (instead of things I wish I had).
So what do you think?